I have experienced the love of Jesus this week, thru some unlikely people- people who are not all intentionally giving me the love of Jesus, even though that is what it feels like to me. First of all, my MOPS group, which I feel so deeply drawn to- I haven't been to a meeting in a couple of months due to travel and illness. When I showed up yesterday morning, I was greeted with such caring and affection, even from women who don't know me really, whose names I can't even recall. Bridget and Amy, my dear groupmates, are so warm and loving. I long to spend more time in their presence and be inspired by their spiritual committments (even though they are republicans. ha ha ha).

Stacey, my dearest Mt. Lebo bud, had such a glow when greeting me at the kindergarten door yesterday. She is worried about her health and must have an MRI tomorrow to rule out MS but she radiated such love toward me. She's told me on several occasions that she feels closer to me than anyone she's met since having her son Ben six and a half years ago. What a complement. I am so blessed. She is so great and fun to laugh with. The pussy-laser, Stacey, the pussy-laser. Now that, my friend, we will always remember!!! I love you.

Jeni Mahani, my gourmet-lunch partner through Juniors. She's been calling to check on me and tell me that she misses me.

I don't know. I wish it wasn't so hard for me to accept love from other people and to return it. I long for intimacy yet I often run from it like the plague. Nancy Sanders would know this, about me, best of all, and for that, I am truly ashamed.

I pray, this week, that the Lord helps me to be better at loving those around me who give me such strength and support. I pray that he replaces my bitterness toward my enemies with deep regard and affection toward my friends. They are who matter and who deserve my time, in both thought and actions.