getting some much needed rest. i will regret this extra few minutes of posting tomorrow morning but - throw caution to the wind, eh? i am struggling right now to figure out some things about my faith in Christ and am actually relieved to be in this place - after so many years of not caring. It is hard for me, being of a liberal mind and comfort level, to know where I fit in with organized christianity. do i go with my family to church in the burbs where the pews are comfy and the kid's ministry is superb or do i remain in the ghetto where i feel at home with my peeps and my children run around in total anarchy during the service and act like lunatics- whereby i get very little peace and feel like killing them? for me, it is a very tough call, though to anyone else it may seem obvious. i'm not fond of the lack of diversity and tolerance in the suburban mega-churches but i can see where they have a lot of positives going for them, especially in the youth arena, where the activities are high on the "wow factor" and well-organized.

we've been reading a lot of Paul's letters in the New Testament during CBS on Thursday morning (and for homework thru-out the week). I am struck, as of late, with the dilemma of "what makes a good-enough christian?" in the eyes of the Lord? Is is merely believing, as we Americans would define the term, in a passive stance, or must we aim to follow in the footsteps of Paul and Timothy, who clearly devoted their whole beings to serving Christ and spreading the Gospel? Is there a middle-ground where God is concerned? What is a luke-warm Christian? Is it me? I'd say, most certainly, yes, or close to it. If that is the case, shouldn't I be getting busy figuring out how to rise above that current status and give my faith, or the lack-thereof an overhaul?

things that make you go hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.............